An awesome attractive girl with a nice booty should come cuddle and be cute with me right now.
An awesome attractive girl with a nice booty should come cuddle and be cute with me right now.
And then it randomly hits me like a ton of bricks. Consumes my thoughts and I find it easier to pretend like it never happened than face that you’re gone because it hurts so fucking much knowing I’ll never laugh with you again, spend hours watching you play video games and discussing horror/zombie movies and music, listen to the music you do on repeat trying to memorize the words to impress you….. So much of what I am is because of you. You were everything I want to be as a person. You believed in me and my dreams and talents when I didn’t believe in them myself. To say I miss you doesn’t even slightly come close to how much I wish you were still here. It terrifies me that in only 7 months and 13 days, i will have surpassed you in age. I don’t want to be older than my big brother was. It isn’t right. None of this is right. But acceptance of what is is all we have. And to keep moving forward, even if barely at all, just to keep going. You were my rock, everything i want to be, but no matter how far the view, i still always look up to you. I love you so much, Blake. I couldn’t have ever wished for a more perfect big brother♥
so I made a new Twitter…. again. pretty sure I’m actually gonna keep with it this time haha. so follow me/give me your twitter account! (side note: jackandthewerewolf was too many letters so I was stuck with jackandwerewolf lol)
In a week or two (I was told) something huge for me is happening, just can’t talk about it/announce it yet :P then in a couple months I’ll have a car again after not having one for a year. My clothes are coming out so awesome too so hopefully within a month or two I’ll have my etsy shop open considering I’ve been talking about it for over a year ha. But this whole year I’ve been a total workaholic (including next week, I’ll have only gotten a total of 3 days off in 8 weeks) so it’s been hard to balance it all! But I’m figuring it out :) But yayyyy at new exciting things happening thanks to a lot of hard work<3 And I’m going to make some physical changes. I DESPERATELY need a hair cut. My hair is literally shorter than it was this time last year even though it’s been about two years since I’ve cut it. It’s just that dead and I’m constantly frying it that it just breaks off. Getting my left nostril pierced with a hoop within the next month or so too. Then on top of all this I’m seeing Green Day with floor tickets on April 9th and Mindless Self Indulgence April 12th.
I’m so incredibly happy and motivated.Â
Prepare to be DESTROYED. And by that I mean cleaned the fuck out of.
I’m seeing Green Day April 9th (floor tickets I may add ;)) and Mindless Self Indulgence April 12th. Tickets are all purchased. It’s happening. Stoked does not even begin to describe it.
They’re both in Boston, let me know if any of you beautiful people be attending either?
Finally got a new theme and after a little tweaking, I adore it. And unlike the last one I had, I can actually have links to my text posts, photos of me and videos :)
I’ve done literally everything to add links to my page to get to my photos of me, videos, text posts and message box and none of them are working, it has to just be the theme that won’t let them be clickable. but I love the the theme I have. hmph. :( looks like I’ll be on the hunt for a new theme tomorrow bc I’m done with editing my page for now haha
Will any of you be at the Memphis May Fire/For Today show on Friday, Feb 1st in Worcester, MA at The Palladium? I just bought myself and best friend James tickets and I’m super stokedddd. Haven’t been to a solid show in a year or so and MMF is one of my absolute favorite bands.
Lemme know if I’ll be seeing any of your beautiful selves there!
I’m finnnnally starting to once again get myself back into the habit of meditating every morning and night. Although the past few months I’ve been living with the intentions/mindset/awareness of the practice more than I ever have throughout my past 8 years of practice, I haven’t been sitting at all really. So, shutting off my phone etc. and going to take an hour to sit and be with all that is. Then after that, finishing up the sit with a half hour or so of metta, which I haven’t done since my last love and compassion weekend silent meditation retreat last summer. This is going to be such a nice, long and needed sit :) Also super stoked that I’m finally going on another weekend retreat in a month or so with my cousin Doug and it’s being led by my absolute favorite teacher, Narayan. Considering that since my first teaching in February 2008, this is the longest I’ve been without going to a teaching/retreat, I’m ridiculously crazy itching/excited for it.
Hope you’re all having a wonderful week so far! xoxx
I hate how easily someone you really care for can have such control over your emotions. Bring you from on top of the world to the absolute pits.
I’ve noticed that often when I’m with my boyfriend I think to myself, “I can’t believe you’re mine. I can’t believe I got you. I can’t believe you could be crazy about anybody but you’re crazy about me.” Then I kiss him passionately and take it all in.
